Truth About Trying


A few months ago I was contacted by someone at Redbook Magazine.

Yeah.  Shocked would be an accurate way to describe how I felt.

Someone from a magazine wanted to talk to me.  And not just ANY magazine but a popular one.  One that thousands of women read.  One that’s been around for a gazillion years.

At first I thought it might be spam, because again, someone from a magazine wanted to talk…to ME?!

As I read on though, this person told me that she had read my blog and thought that I would be perfect for a campaign the magazine was going to launch in a bit.

A campaign to bring awareness to infertility.

Well, yes, I certainly know something about that.

The thing was, though, that she wanted me to make a video.


I’ve always said that I would NEVER, EVER make a vlog.

I don’t want to see myself on video.  Seriously.

I don’t like the way that I sound and watching myself on a video is just…*cringe* TERRIFYING!

She told me that she’d like it to be both Kyle and me in the video if that was something we could do, but if it was just me that would be perfectly fine, too.

I told Kyle about this whole thing and asked him if he’d do it with me.  He was non-committal.

So I told this lady that, yes, as scared as I was to do it, I WOULD do it, with or without Kyle.

There was a questionnaire of sorts that she wanted me to fill out, so I did that pretty quickly.  Then it was time to start thinking about the video.


Thankfully, she told me that I still had a little bit of time till she and her editor would need it so I could breath for a little bit and think about how I wanted to do the video and what I wanted to say.  She gave me a starting point, too, so that was nice.

Believe me when I tell you that I left this to the very last second.  And the video that I did, oh boy.  I can’t even tell you how many “takes” I did.  First it was too long.  Then I couldn’t stop stumbling over my words.  Then I just looked like a total DORK.  But I just had to send something so it was the very last “take” before I left for work.  Done.  Like it or not, it was going.

In the video, I talk about what it’s like to find out that you’re infertile when you’re in your 20’s.  If I had more time {they only wanted about 3 minutes} there’s so much more that I could’ve said.

Really though, infertility {and finding out you’re infertile, no matter when / what age it is} is such a personal thing.  It’s different for each and every person.

Being the non-emotional, non-crier that I am, I often bottle up my feelings till just the right thing sets me off and I become a blubbering mess.  {This actually happened recently and I’m still trying to figure out what I want to say about it.}

As I say in the video, we DO go out and live our lives, but that’s not to say that I don’t have my down moments.  I definitely do.  But usually my emotion comes out as anger and bitterness rather than sadness and tears.

The thing is, though, that if I let the 9 years that we’ve been trying completely get me down, *I* {not saying everyone} would be a boring, depressed soul and that’s not how I want to live my life.

I love to laugh and have fun and I don’t WANT to sit around depressed all the time.  So I have to find the good in life.

Everyone deals with their infertility in completely different ways.  I just hope that me being a part of this “Truth About Trying” Infertility Campaign helps someone out there to realize that there still are happy times to be had despite being infertile.

To see more videos from celebrities that have gone through infertility and people like you and me, click the link above or right here.


Chat live w/ @redbookmag at 2 p.m. EST 10/18 #truthabouttrying

Read more: The Truth About Trying – Redbook



  1. I am so glad I stumbled across your blog! I’m dealing with possible infertility as well. We are doing the testing as we speak. Needless to say in scared! I can’t wait to read more of your blog!

  2. Grrr!! Blogger / IntenseDebate seriously frustrates me! I have no idea why it switches {and erases} commenting systems!

    Comments from before it switched:

    Megan from

    Thanks for sharing! This was so brave of you to do! 🙂

    Thanks Megan!


    Cole from

    You are so brave! And you are going to touch so many women by taking part in Redbook’s campaign!

    Way to go!!!! 🙂

    I hope so Cole! Thanks!

    Britney from

    You are famous! thanks for being a spokesperson for all of us!

    Thanks Britney!


    My cousin Eve from

    What a cool opportunity… but scary too! Wow! Are they doing a print article as well? If so, let me know when so I can buy it!
    I couldn’t listen to the Vlog because I’m at Mike’s office, so I’ll have to watch it again later, but I watched part of it on silent and you look fantastic – I’m guessing that the vlog is awesome!! 😉

    Eve, I don’t know if they’re doing a hard copy of it or not, but if I find out they are, I’ll let ya know.


    Thanks everyone! It was scary making the video but I’m glad that I was able to give a voice to Infertility!

    Sorry for the deletion of your comments! It wasn’t me, promise! 🙂

  3. Misty, I’m glad you found me too! Prayers for you!

  4. I’m so glad that you decided to do this! When I saw the article in Redbook I was just ecstatic! Finally something I could relate to! I’m so happy they found you and sought you out! You look great! Thanks for sharing your journey


  5. Not letting infertility define you and Kyle by living your lives is inspiring, hopefully spreading infertility awareness will increase everyone’s chance of success!

    (You sound great on camera. 🙂

  6. You are a cutie pie Megan! You did an excellent job on your vlog…and I am sure it will encourage people.

    It is so nice that you got to do this. I am still praying for you and hubby to be able to see your dreams come true!

    Love, Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

  7. I’m so glad I just came across your blog!!! I’ve recently realized I need to be more openly accepting to my infertile status and started looking for blogs tonight and just loved reading yours. I feel like I can relate so much to your story! I’m so thankful to read other people’s similar situations and feelings and know that I’m not the only one. Thanks for sharing!!

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